Amor Fati: Embracing My Fate with Faith

Drifting from one thought to another, I am a daydreamer, a wanderer, a pursuer of whatever’s been planted in this delicate heart of mine - that is my vision and mission.

My soul, born with a quest for something more, something deeper, something bigger than myself and larger than this life, is faced with the question: everything to lose or nothing to lose? That I have yet to find out.

My voice, which meanders in nature, has taken me to all kinds of places, blips here and there, each of which has gifted me with esoteric wisdom distilled out of firsthand experience. 

What will get me to where I want to be? My meandering voice I believe. 

It’ll shift me from ‘what if’ to ‘what is’ and ‘what will be’.

Nothing may make absolute sense right now, but everything as it is just feels right, according to my body, my truth barometer. I realized somewhere along the way that it’s not how much I know, but how much I care that matters most. My heart is what will make all the difference and leave a lasting impact: be it a high-five, pat on the back, smile, hug, kiss, or touch. Maybe just maybe that’s what the world needs more from me - my realness and sweetness. 

Pretty much an exposed raw nerve myself, I tend to soak in so much and am unable to hide my heartfelt and sincere emotions. 

The ups and downs and in-betweens of life continue to perplex and amaze me. I’m like a contortionist that’s being challenged to twist and turn and stretch to the max, making room for strength to build and converge with grace in this sacred space called Amor Fati. 

In daring to take that leap of faith and express myself creatively, I find myself growing in love with my fate, the unconventional and countercultural path I’ve carved out for myself, because I trust that each decision I’ve made thus far is good or at least, necessary in living life to the fullest.

As I receive messages with my left hand, the wisdom keeper, I give what I can and write what I’ve learned using my right hand, the messenger.

And for today, this is the mantra my right hand composed:

“As you learn to ride your own rollercoaster, remember to have fun with life, live the heck out of each moment, and with more love in your life.”